Wonder how powerful fear or even phobia can get... Made me quit from As curriculum. Makes me withdrawn from poly education. And even results in poor sleeps at night.

I need more time. But I know they are very limited too... So scary. /: when your future is dependent on the decision...

How to be able to find my own pacing... How to convince my soul from being so afraid. If only the society is more acceptive of people who are just less academics results proven.

Wonder how people will develop and grow in 5-10 years time... Oh haha my mum told me to work hard on developing or finding my skill or future work than to go into a relationship. She adds, since you're unlikely to get married young. Spend time on more realistic and things that can reward you and your life. (like seriously, how many mums tell their kids such things?) hahahahaha.

Kay that's all for now. :)