trying, trusting, not wanting to leave regrets?

sooooo for the past 23 days of my life, i had to deal with this 'whole new world'? haha. and given that i'm such a over thinker on the smallest things... there were times when it got really tiring.

and now by typing this i'm also like hoping that i'll get myself to do this. since i've gotten somewhat convinced.

there was just the internal debate on to commit or not. to trust or not. to be brave or not. because i feel so clueless on what it should be that every now and then i will give in to the idea of just giving up and heck care about the issue. despite knowing how, i should be giving it my all whether it will be a happily ever after or it will just be a sweet memory that follows me to old age. because feelings are real and we should not allow life to give us chances to regret.

yet of course, being worried about getting hurt felt too much to be handling too. hence, all the debate.

so now, i just want to promise myself that i shall be braver, i shall hold back less, and i shall get use to things more. haha. and probably be true with my feelings more? hahaha.

zomggggggggggggggggggg. ok. *takes a deep breath*.