yet again. trying to figure out what should growing up be. cause, i don't want to grow up.

hence, i think, i just want to know what i should be preparing myself for, for the next 5 years. then next 10 years. can i, age because i can't go against nature, but not grow up?

went back to ny on mr shone's bday. had a great time catching up with a number of teachers with yanquan, audrey and janice. after janice left, we tried looking for 戴老师，but she was too busy. after waiting for an hour or so, we gave up the wait and decided to check out old 410 classroom, which is the present one too! haha. there wasn't much change, still very familiar. just that there's now lockers, the noticeboard nearer to the door is no longer a cock board but its in a format for attendance, homework, news and there is curtains for the side along the alley. one cool thing was that they table and chairs were in the format that 310'08 had used when we first started our term as a class. brought back nice memories and we had the convo on how our class's sitting arrangement had changed in our 2 years.

this girl in the 411 classroom was playing korean songs, then we talked about how we would play english songs, not korean ones, have our own sing along and watched you're beautiful (drama) on it too.

the teachers were really happy to see us, though a few had serious issues with just trying to recall the three of their names. HAHAHA. i'm such a frequent visitor that no one has issue with my name.

and yesterday, i met up with some of my exclassmates from a10. oddly, though i barely opened my mouth, being with them felt comfortable. i sure didn't experience 2012 with them, wasn't all that close to them in our only year together too. yet they gave a welcoming feeling. they are really very nice and sweet people (just with odd eccentricities). hope that they'll get good results and move on to do whatever that like to. can really picture many of them excelling in their own niche in the future.

i was seriously excited to go paris and london before i booked the tickets. but now. am feeling apprehensive. not sure if its because i have to deal with everything alone. hopefully this blue feeling will fade in a week's time. haha.