so... being away from family plus largely alone and in a foreign country with the population speaking a language i can't converse in for almost 3 days. like 70 hours.

i'll do a proper write up on the nice places i've been later. not a lot actually. HAHA. i'm taking a long time to get use to the need to take photos.

for now, i just want to say, for some reason or another, i have felt strongly about being separated from my mum since young. though i'm turning 20 in 4 months and few days time. being here in paris, without a friend, all alone makes me miss my mum very VERY much.

when i was a kid, i can't sleepover in my relatives' places. by 12am i will be whining and crying for my mum. few years ago, when i heard of others' who are living lives without their mothers, i got really scared what if any thing was to happen. like really scared. i still am. don't dare to think. i am really still very much dependent on my mum. not just physically but mentally. like i won't be able to imagine life without her. and since a few years ago when i had the fear, acknowledging the fact that people will leave, i also had the belief that despite me being old in the future, when she eventually leaves, i will still find life hard without her.

i am a mummy's girl without a doubt. not so much of my mum needs me, but more of i need her. lol

next thing, the temperature here is REALLY NO JOKE. SO COLD CAN. ): when i was walking on the streets just now. saw signs saying its 0. and i was like, wow so this is 0. the temperature ice freeze at. (HAHA) i'm only laughing now that i'm typing it out. half the time i was amazed that my feet could still move, cause they were freezing and i lost some sensation in them. i'm thankful for my powerful legs/feet. i will get you nice boots to keep you warm soon. please help me in getting them soon too! HAHA.

oh yeah. i have realised that my appetite has reduced over here. will show evidence in the next post!

shall sleep early tonight. growing up = not fun. its hard... :/