personalities

i realised i'm such a dilemma.

i think i'm courageous. yet i'm not confident.

i think i'm sociable. yet i like to do things on my own.

i do enjoy being in company of friends but i don't really need them that much.

i don't think i'm making much sense, i'm like rambling.

anyway, i just don't like the thing about myself that i get scared when i have to speak up. sometimes it even happens with the closest people. ):

and it annoying that i can't seem to trust myself. or credit my own abilities.

i'm worried that i'll forget how to be accommodating and end up being to self-centered or selfish.

while i think its good that i'm perfectly fine with being all alone. i don't see 'i need to drag a friend along' as a need when i do things. but a part of me is saying that too much of it is bad too. :/

anyways i have certain projects in mind plus more things on my personal to-dos! :D