it has been 6 weeks...

time sure flies... 6weeks. doesn't actually seem that long right? haha.

well. i'm not sure if what i'll like to say would be making sense. if not, thanks for bearing with me.

anyway, i'll really glad to have been able to come earlier on my own. cause like my uncle said, it's a form of additional expenses and not everyone can do it. but maybe at the same time M understood how i would like to getaway from the destructive power. i'm not sure. i don't think that's why i came early. it was really just because, in my ideal mind i wanted to travel around too. HAHAHA. then i realised how expensive living in reality is after coming here...

as i was thinking how its been 6 weeks since i got here last night, i realised how i am able to find my mind ready for the next journey. like, for the longest time, i've actually felt like my mind was hoovering around. like i knew i was coming here going to pick up the skills and sorts. but yet, my mind-soul was still in the state of figuring things out, in an unrest. till last night.

maybe i haven't been very active with checking out of places. and today i was on the phone with M and she asked what have i been doing for so long. and well i don't have a presentable answer you can say. and i may seem like i'm wasting my time here. but i prefer the idea of going to a location to do something (minor/unexciting) but discover interesting stuff or so because of my original purpose. like today i went to this area to check out the market. its not like i've never been there before. just that i went there on a new route. which brought about unexpected elements to my day. (: it can be that boring originally, but the part and parcels of this city made it otherwise.

it has been a good 6 weeks to put things to stone and have my mind-soul all set for school. while it can be a bit less relaxing without people that i can rant however i like around. but i'm still good. i'll work on my attitude towards people and how i digest people's tones or actions. (surprisingly, M told me to just avoid too much contact with those i can't click with. and not, ask me to change. hmm.)